Saturday, February 27, 2010

Hmmm...Perception is everything....

Me and my wonderful husband, John.

So, my husband John and I went to this pizza place to meet some friends. He works with the husband and I had never met his wife. She was very nice and pretty and a little heavy...not much though. Anyway, we were talking about snoring. She said that she snored and asked if I did. I told her I did but I thought it was because the fat around my neck and I told her I was having Lap Band surgery in May. She looked at me and asked why? Well, my eyes got big and I'm thinking....can't you see how fat I am? I told her I had to lose about 90 pounds. She said "Oh no you don't. You don't look that heavy to me. I thought only really fat people had that done." Of course I was flattered. Maybe it was the outfit I wore or the fact that it was kind of dark and she really could not tell how fat I am.

I just found it very interesting how other people perceive you and what you see in the mirror. I really only see the fat hanging on me and how big my belly looks. I mean I am 50 years old and I am so afraid someone is going to ask me when my baby is due!

It is so frustrating too even get dressed up a little to meet people who work with my husband. I really do not want to embarrass him in any way. He is wonderful and says he loves me no matter what, bless his heart. I changed my clothes 3 times before I felt okay to go out. I can't wait for the day when I can go in my closet and choose anything I want and it looks good to me.

Honestly, if I could stay home until I lose this damn weight, I would! I hate feeling inadequate and self conscious ALL of the time! May cannot get here soon enough!

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Miss Vickie

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I think I am getting the hang of this!

I have been goofing around with this blog stuff today. I really didn't like the way my blog looked. Thankfully, my husband, John helped me out. He is really the computer whiz...not me.

I actually did my excercise video today! I have also been tracking my food and drinking water. I sincerely hope I will see a loss in the next two weeks. I go to the nutritionist for my weigh in then. I noticed that I wasn't very hungry today. Maybe because I was drinking water...what a concept!

I will posting more pictures soon. I think I figured that out too. Thanks for all the support. This blogging has peaked my interest and I learn a lot too.

Miss Vickie

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Spring Cleaning!!!!!

I know I sound a bit excited, huh? Well, not really. I am trying to get some heavy stuff done before my husband, John comes home on Saturday. He has been working in Maryland for the last 6 weeks. So......I am excited to see him of course. I don't want to have to clean anything for a few days.

I am really trying to follow the guidelines of my diet. I am seeing the nutritionist for the next 3 months. I would like to lose a couple of pounds before surgery. My problem is eating out of boredom. With my husband gone and no job as of yet, it can get a little boring. I keep rereading the material she gave me so I get through my thick skull! It's kind of tough to cook for one person.

Anyway, I wanted to say thanks to Amy for being my first follower! I hope to learn more about blogging....I truly don't have a clue what I'm doing. I will continue to look forward to Amy's blog.

Have a great day!

Miss Vickie